i know you don’t care. i know i shouldn’t. but a part of me still holds on, to absolutely nothing. i never wanted it to go down how it did. jus completely silent, cold, nothingness. dead, i always wanted us to happen, even and ever if i dogged you or made you feel less than, ghosted you, whatever. it was only because i was scared and i wanted you to do more, not just match my energy, i know its harder too for girls like me…i always have to point something out even when it’s not needed…i dont even like myself sometimes i just tolerate myself. what, were you trying to get me back? Where was that going to get us? further in this hole? i genuinely cant get over you i dont know why i cant even say your name out loud.
i cant hardly think it.
it hurts.
i always hope for us. Is that any consultation? Does that make you feel anything? why couldn’t have this been easy? (rhetorical) why couldn’t I just have been your sneaky link oms.

– the only girl thats ever been truly in love with every part of you without ever having to know you, i just knew. (I’ll always know.)