Unsent Project

Hi Caleb. You know how confusing everything is. You’ve always been so kind and saw good in me, even when I didn’t know how much longer I could hold on. Thank you. I wish I could say more to you, but I get shy too easily. I normally don’t, but somehow you manage to make me speechless. Thanks for loving me when I couldn’t and I wish I could say the same in person.

i lashed out in anger and texted your mom, im sorry for that. it felt weird seeing you, so much relief, but also at the end of the 2nd hangout i knew what you meant when you said you lost feelings for me. i realized alot of what ive been feeling these last few years without you is limerance. none the less im still dull and depressed with out you. I know the second we start hanging out again and you drop that douche act you were doing that id fall madly in love with you all over again. we just really understood eachother, even when we fought we always made up, or it made us stronger. im so sorry for all the time ive hurt you, all the times i screwed up. i dont know why i love you so much, and i dont know why it physically hurts to miss you, but it does. i know if we really wanted to we could work past the disaprovale of our families because i would do anything if it meant waking up next to my sweet man every morning;(… i lash out and say things ill never mean and i cant ever take it back, but i wish u knew how much i loved you, how much i always will love you. you know my phone number, text me when you “miss the attention” nolly polly

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Sometimes I think. I consider for a moment what it would have been
Iike if it all worked out. lf it
was okay between us. The thoughts I have about
you plague me, You enter
my mind uninvited. Yet I
welcome you anyway.
Your existence, even at a
distance tugs at my
heartstring The ache in
my chest remains there,
Rarely subsiding. The
endless buzz of you in the
background of my mind. I’ve tried to forget you. To bury you deep. I thought I missed you less. I thought I was over the love and loss of it all. I thought I had grown. But the only thing that’s taken root is the remnants of you within my Soul. The moments we never had. The lingering glances I never got to experience.
The potential life that was ripped away from me. The love that was ripped away. When you left you took a part of me with you that i still find myself searching for. In an act which you called mercy, you had me destroyed and left.
Leaving me to pick up the Pieces. I’m mentally tugged in different directions trying to leave you in the past Unsure if I can. I find myself missing your voice.
Not knowing what it sounds like anymore.
Wishing to experience your laugh again. And wishing that the last” i love you ” wasn’t so bittersweet. I cursed myself when I said you’ll always have a place in my heart.

if fate lets us, i’ll fall for you all over again.
yours,
apples, 17 d older than you still

i love you. and i always will. maybe in another lifetime, we are endgame. but i wish we were in this one too.

to my first love, i’m grateful to have been yours. even after the love you had for me turned bitter, it was once there, was it not? thank you for being my home, my solace, my everything. thank you for allowing me to be your moon among your stars. i wish you’d realize everything i’ve done just to continue loving you. how much it ruined me. i wish you’d realize just how favorable the circumstances were to get better for you after we fought that day. i always strived to be the person you wanted. i’m sorry for everything i’ve done that ended up hurting you. i was projecting my pain onto you, and it destroyed us. i hope one day you’d realize how much i truly loved you. all my efforts to preserve your happiness. how much i still love you. i miss you, my starr. you invigorated my life, no matter how much i was suffering for you. i gave you every last thing i had, and pushed all my limits for you. i’d do it all again for you. it’s only you. if you ever choose to come back, i promise you we can do it right this time. loving you made me happy, xhenelle. i wish we could fulfill the promises we made to each other. i love you. i love you, i love you, i love you. thank you for being in every aspiration, every wish, every dream, and every prayer i’ve had since i met you. i’m so proud of you, my love. for every minute accomplishment or success you have. i will continue to support for as i always have, from far away. i’m sorry it wasn’t us, princess. i wish i could hold you one last time.

these six years that I’ve known you, you are genuinely the best thing that’s ever happened to me and I’ve honestly never been happier, I know I’m not ur gf but just being near you has healed me so much more than you know and I’m so so so thankful that you’re in my life, the sweetest things are worth waiting for honeybun and for you I will wait an eternity. Thank you for being so awesome <3

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