I just want us both to apologize we both fucked up. why are we so prideful ?our egos killed us. Come back baby. Idek know why I’m saying this one day I want you and only you, and the next day I hate you and I want absolutely nothing to do with you. But I still miss you regardless of how I feel I know you love ur friend and I’m sorry I took that away from you I just couldn’t handle the pain it would bring me especially knowing you never stood up for me, and if you did u didn’t make a big deal out of it. It was hard for me to forgive him. You never understood that bc he was your best friend. Whilst to me he was just another bully. That situation changed me a person and you got to witness every bit of it I never understood how you could lie and sneak around knowing the pain I was enduring everyday I hope one day I won’t even care anymore. I hope one day my mom is right and I do just get over it. She told me that. She said it could be months from now or it could be years but scientifically you will just get over it. But how? I wanted to grow up with you. But I have to do it all by myself now. Which is fine because I have God and my family and my friends but fuck I just fucking want you Tyler. I’m tired of all of these guys trying to get with me they don’t want me they want my body that’s all anyone ever fucking wants from me