I’m pretty sure that if you ever see this, you’ll know exactly who I am from what I’ve called you. Honestly, I don’t think you’ll ever come across this in your life—yappa yappa yappa—but I just need to get this off my chest. Funny how I put it that way, right? Because whenever I do have something to get off my chest, I always run to you.

But this time, it’s different.

I can’t bring myself to say this to your face, because I’m scared it’ll ruin the “friendship” we’ve spent almost five months building. I don’t even know if you consider me a friend, but I love the idea of it.

Here’s what I really want to say:

I’m confused. I feel a spark between us—something that might sound ridiculous to you. Every time I feel that chemistry, I convince myself I’m just being delusional. But the truth is, no guy has ever made me blush and kick my feet the way you do.

I hope you never find this—at least not if it’s going to make us drift apart.