hi matthew. i know you said that it’s not too late, but it feels like it. i keep racking my brain on things i could have done to fix this and turn back time. i think you would think this is super corny. i want to talk to you all the time, i don’t think you want the same. what happened? i can feel the erasure of me from you and i honestly haven’t felt more distressed. i check your profiles frequently looking for breadcrumbs of how you used to see me, i think you just deleted the last post and story i had of that. im frustrated with myself bc im so sad about it, i should just block you but i cant. pathetic! i’ve never felt like this and it feels like nothing will change and i’ll feel like this forever. i’m not good at self control and giving space