She’ll probably never see this. So, to my dearest Lily,
I’m writing this as a mystery, whether you find this or not, I think I’ll always love you even after all the pain and betrayal you caused me. There’s time where I think to myself, do you even miss me or think abt me ? Or do you think of yk…. Instead of me. Ik I saw you the other day and you started to tear up, probably cz you either feel guilty or you remember the memories about us. I still remember the first day we hung out at AP, we were fooling around and then that’s the day we realize there was more to us than being friends. Our first kiss in case you remember. Infront of your house after I dropped you off after our long shift at work. I still remember it vividly. We practically saw each other grow up, now we’re both going into our own careers this year, you are about to finish your training for the academy in less than 2 months, I’m about to go to boot camp. We grew up but we also are now growing apart. There are times where I think about us, but then there’s times I just want to forget you. But how can I forget almost 3 years of our life’s together. Practically everything we did on a daily basis, we did together and now, I don’t even know if you ate today. Trust me I would love to go back in time and relive everything once again, I really do. But here we are. Now, idk if I can go back to you and act like nothing happened. But oh how badly do I want to reconcile with you. Just try us one more time. I’m not gonna chase you or reach out to you no more. The ball is in your park now. I don’t even know what I wrote to tell you the truth, just random words coming out but I can’t believe after everything, I still love you so dearly. Honestly I don’t know if you do anymore. Maybe you moved on, maybe you reminisce abt someone else. But it’s okay, if hurting me and leaving me was better for you to start being happy, I don’t mind. As long as ur happy. I’ll cherish every moment we had together. Remember, you’ll always be my spoiled little princess. My mocosa, my loca, my fufu and my chuchu. Crazy how I never had these nicknames to anyone cz I thought it was cringey. But for you I don’t care, I loved you proudly. I loved you for you. Adios mi Chiquita ❤️