I never wanted to be your friend I wanted uu since the day I sat next to uu. im sorry sugar cube for being a coward and not perusing you like I wanted to. I’m sorry I pushed away when you might’ve felt like you was being vulnerable. I’m sorry if I seemed distant from you at some point. I’m sorry for not perusing something in hopes that would keep my friendship alive but ultimately ended it. Im sorry for not treating you how you wanted to and how I wanted to too. I’m sorry for not being ready for you. I’m sorry for not listening to you. I’m sorry for not being able to get over myself in order to be loved by you. I’m sorry if I made you feel little. I’m sorry if I held you back. I’m sorry if I’m making a big deal out of nothing. I wish I would’ve tried. I wish I would get over myself anxiety, and my dumb stupid head. I wish I can go back and love you how you are meant to be loved. I truly did want to be with you. I truly wanted to be yours and vice versa. Protecting my peace of mind for what when you only made it better. Made me feel me. I wish I can take it all back but I’m a different person now I don’t know how that would affect you. I’m sorry for not being there how I truly wanted to. I’m sorry for shutting you out. In sorry for saying what I said in class when I was just fighting there urge to. I’m sorry for not being who you wanted me to be. I apologize for this rant. And I’m sorry for the future we never got to have. We should’ve at least tried and I’m sorry that I got in the way of that. I miss you beautiful gorgeous girl. I pray you feel better and do better everyday of the year. I love you as a human being. Take care my wanted love. <3