Jeff. I did it. I made the mistake I think we probably won’t be able to cross over. And I know you said to think positive but that’s just cause of who you are. I hope you know that if I could go back in time and change it all I would with no hesitation. I don’t think there’s to much I can say, cause you’ve heard it all. But you never really heard how I felt on the inside. When we first started oh boy I felt like I could fly. Like every room I walked all the doors opened. Like the smile on my face would last lifetimes. But eventually I changed who i was to try and fit your standard. But in turn I destroyed myself and still didn’t fit. I looked in the mirror and hated who I was. I hated that I let you in. That I was so vulnerable around you, so opened. That I layed my very fragile heart in your hands and you crushed it in my face and still I hated myself for hurting you. Or at least attempting to. You once asked why I loved you and I must admit I still do. The reasons all the same I love you for your quiet strength and the way your heart sees mine even when I hide it. You make the world feel safe, meaningful, and full of love just by being uniquely you.
I have accepted the reality of us, but my hopes steams and desires have failed to catch up. I will love and miss you forever Bebe.