After everything we went through and after all the hurt, I rly thought that apology was real. I don’t think I’ll ever get u out of my system. What we had was so different than anything else I’ve ever known before. I still love you Eli, more than u will ever know. How could u have moved on so fast? Especially right to by best friend that I risked losing for you. I took that risk and lost her for a good while, but I did it bc I loved you. Nd now, I’m slowly losing myself to these feelings bc i know it will never be the same. I know I act like im over you but im not. I still think about u all day, thinking about all the what ifs. Just why didn’t it work out? Why don’t u feel the same anymore? I didn’t do anything wrong Eli. I loved you with my whole heart. U were what kept me going. I broke so many rules for you, and yet u still never understood that. I just miss you ml, more than u will ever know. I’ll be waiting for you if you ever come back to me. I love you. I pinky promise.

love,
b