There was many things left unturned, unsaid, undone. It felt like our lives would be intertwined and just keep being that way. I miss when we were happy and together and really happy together. Life sucks but I didn’t know any other way but we might’ve just been in the same boat. I want to believe in the one, dan shi zhen de ma? 茫茫人海中，我希望你闪亮到不能不注意到你。If our circumstances were a bit different, would it have changed the outcome? Sometimes life is funny in that way. I can’t live up to the comedy, that was all you. You deserve so much in life that I hope you see it. Maybe it wasn’t meant to be in that time, but I hope you see your effect on the people around you. I am glad to meet you in my lifetime and our forever might be said too carelessly but it really felt like anything else didn’t matter. I am letting it go. Maybe not you but everything I was holding onto that was detrimental to me and you. Thank you, I have to say this again because I am very grateful for the time you were in my life, my companion, really the sweetest purest being. I just have my own demons that I didn’t want to grab onto you but it still drained out your spark. I hope it only gets better for you and you have your own ambitions to take charge in. I don’t know how well I fit into your life but I hope I did a good run. I wished to take all your sorrows but that cup was too full of my own and vice versa. Thank you for being my first love, I will always have a special place in my heart for you. Goodbye Ant.