I’m sorry for causing such trouble, I’m sorry for being annoying and rude even though I try to control my emotions, it doesn’t let me to. I’m sorry for being rude but it’s because I felt like I was just a people pleaser so if someone I was close to told me to not be friends with you or even talk to you, I had to because I didn’t want them to think that I’m doing it because I didn’t care about what they said, I don’t feel clean for some reason even though I probably know why, I’m scared of being abandoned and replaced, I’m sorry if I come off as noisy but just know, I truly care about you guys and I understand if someone else tells you something as a secret but whenever someone says they have tell someone that I am close with a secret/ talk privately, I just want to know since I’m scared of losing y’all, I’m scared of being alone, I’m scared of being abandoned, I’m scared of being replaced, I’m scared of being ignored, so if I come off as noisy, I’m sorry about it. I’m sorry about everything.