My dear Ryan,

I wish on that very day, I could take back what I said. Because I would’ve never guess, it would be the last memory we had together. And I always wonder, how it would be if I never said that. What if we still walked home together, laughing on the bus till we were both crying, writing our names on each other’s arm? It was all my fault, now, I can’t even look you in the eye, can’t walk home with you, can’t even be standing or near you without getting nervous. We’re like strangers again. You probably forgot about me and our memories together, but I haven’t, and I never will. I have been waiting for 5 years Ryan. Hoping one day you will come up and talk to me, but you never did. Ether way you were always there for me, helping me, even if you didn’t know it. I really loved you Ryan, but I guess you moved on, and maybe I need too as well. Or not.

Love, C