I’ve been carrying so much in my heart and no matter how many times I try to put it down, it always circles back to you. I loved you with everything I had, with a loyalty and devotion I thought would be enough to prove how real I was. and maybe that was my mistake thinking I could hold us together with my own strength, when really, love only lasts if God is at the center of it.
there were times I prayed for us, asking God to heal what was breaking, asking Him to change what I couldn’t control. and maybe His silence was already the answer. maybe He was showing me that no matter how much I gave, if He didn’t bless it, it would never grow the way I dreamed it could.It hurts gosh, it hurts to know that I poured so much of myself into you, only to watch you give your heart somewhere else. but even in that pain, I know God is still good. He’s using this heartbreak to draw me closer to Him, to remind me that my worth isn’t measured by who stays or who leaves. He’s teaching me that love without Him is fragile, but love with Him is everlasting. I don’t regret loving you I don’t regret anything even the painful parts. I still want the best for you, Neveah. Truly. I want you to know joy that doesn’t fade, peace that can’t be shaken, and love that reflects God’s heart for you. I pray that one day you’ll let Him fill the empty spaces in you that no person can ever reach. and I hope that whoever stands beside you in the future will love you the way Christ calls us to love patient, kind, selfless, forgiving. the way I tried, but fell short, because I was leaning on myself instead of God.and as much as I wish it could’ve been me, I’m learning to let go and trust that His plan is greater than my desire. maybe He kept us apart because He knew the weight of what I was carrying, and He knew I needed Him more than I needed you.so if we can’t be together, if it’s not in God’s will, then I pray your future will love you more than I ever did not just with words, not just with promises, but with a love rooted in Him, the only love that truly lasts.