Hi Ma. I’m sorry I’m not the daughter you wanted. Even though you never wanted one in the beginning. You were gonna stop at him that’s why I’m the “surprise”. I know you love me and I’m not saying you don’t but you should’ve stopped. Gotten an abortion maybe. Instead you have a kid that you love but didn’t plan on having. I know I mess up a lot. I know I lie a lot. I don’t know why I’m like this. I don’t want to be. I’m sorry I couldn’t have been the good kind of surprise. Even if I’m the beginning the surprise was nice it just gets old. I know I told you I want feeling good. I didn’t mean sick. I was gonna try to talk to you. Backfired and now im lying about being sick and my symptoms. I didn’t want to lie. Im not feeling good and that’s the truth. You just took it the wrong way. I really do love you. I don’t resent you for anything. It’s all my fault. I should be the better kid. Not you be the better parent when you’re doing your job better than me. I’m never sending this to you but I want you to know I really do love you and I should’ve done better.