jay..
my sweet jay, you have my heart. i love you, i deeply loved you, damn i’m a fool, a fool, fool, fool. i think.. and i think… what we could’ve been. you stopped me from hurting myself, stopped me from giving up, giving up on life. you kept me going, you kept me alive. you gave me a reason to live, to thrive.
i’m so careless, gosh i screwed up. i always do, it was never you.. it was always me. making mistake, after mistake, after mistake. i completely ignored your feelings,
i always did. always called you a liar…when in reality,i was the one who lied.
i never stopped loving you, i just needed a reason to break up. i needed a reason to let you go. i, myself, screwed up, again, again and again. damn. i’m always doing something wrong. the thought of you hasn’t left my mind. i fear that i might be the reason, the reason you might, end it. and i fear it,i deeply fear it. and if i really knew if you might, i wouldn’t have broken up. i love you, jay i always loved you.i’ll never stop.
-love yareliz.