I sometimes wish I knew what you actually wanted from me. Is it bc you wanted my body or is it bc you genuinely liked me? “I don’t wanna be 20 something and still in my head abt 17 in my bedroom talking” im dead serious, i want to be a better person. But with you in the back of my head all I wanna do is text you telling you everything. But ik it’s not worth any of our pain. Bc I know how connected we are. I never understood how I can come back and you’d be there, ready to speak. i just wish i knew if we was meant to be Or if it’s just my heart yearning for the attention you gave to me. It’s like nobody compares to what you would say. Even when it was just an “okay” or “you need to stop” im sorry for hurting you. I’m sorry it’s to late. Maybe one day but not any time soon. Unless god decides otherwise. I just want to fill free but it will never happen.