I’m not the best with words, but here I go.
Emiko, I still think about you every night and dream about us, even though it feels wrong sometimes. I miss our late night calls at the end of the day just talking about school and sharing our feelings with each other. Those moments made me realize how kind-hearted you truly are. I hope you never lose that part of yourself, because it’s the most beautiful and cherishable thing about you. I wish I could apologize for not being the partner you deserved, and that things hadn’t ended the way they did but maybe they needed to. I still remember the day you broke my heart. I replay it in my head, wondering what I could’ve done differently. It hurts knowing the many ways that couldve been different; im full of regrets. I never got the chance to say happy birthday to you earlier this year, but I truly hope you had a wonderful one :). I don’t think I’ll ever fully forgive myself for taking your love for granted. It pains me to see you as a stranger now. Even so, I hope you know I still love you from afar, even if it stings seeing you with someone else. I’m just glad to see you happy with him, i just wish it could’ve been with me. You may not realize it, but you’ve inspired me to become a better person to love more deeply, and to never take someone’s heart for granted again. I’ll always cherish the memories we shared, for as long as I can remember them.

I doubt you’ll ever see this but if you do someday just know Im sorry for not being good enough and if you ever need anything give me a call im always avail. I love you to the moon and back emi❣️Maybe in another lifetime, you’ll still be my special person.