God it should have been you, every time. It was never right for me but I wish I would have ran off with you like you asked Chasen. My biggest regret in all 23 years of my life was not being with you. I constantly catch myself redoing things in my head from the start when we were teens. When I went to see you at your ants. I need to stop fantasizing about you. You were always the one and I let you slip away in between my fingers, always the better choice. I’m glad I got to know you and I really hope you’re doing well I wish you nothing but the best and I hope we cross paths again. I know you could probably never forgive me but I never meant harm. I love you. I really do. And I’m sorry we haven’t talked in a couple years but I can’t stop thinking about you. I wish I could tell you this in person but not brave enough to leave or brave enough to tell you. I miss your comfort your eyes. You’re soothing voice your understood me, my mind, my body… I miss you.