what i left out of my last message though is how admittedly destroying it is to read you say those things/post those things on social media/feel those things in general. i know i did things wrong and made mistakes, and did some unfair shit to you that I’d never repeat or should have in the first place, but jesus I always seem to forget how deep your hatred is for me now. I understand hurt, but you have to know those things are not completely true. you have 2+ years of memories with me too. unless you blocked those out, and you’re telling yourself that stuff to make it easier to move on. but then why 4 months later do you still think them? idk fuck me man i hate the way i reacted too but you apparently completely changed everything. i want to go back so bad, and i wish you did too. i always respected you, and i hope one day you see that.