if that’s maybe possibly who i think it is then that wasn’t really communicated to me straight. but also to be honest and take accountability wasn’t in the best headspace. ur probably not them at all i just wish for a chance to actually talk to them. i regret everything and the way i acted at first but i am not good with loss and losing you has been the hardest thing in my life. i am sincerely sorry and i should have been better. i wish i was better. i know its my fault and thats what keeps me up for days, fueling myself with self hatred and anger at myself. im sorry, for all of it. more than anyone will probably ever understand. i never meant to make you feel that way.