there’s a low chance you see this, and that’s completely fine with me. mya, for the past 4 months i have tried to quietly cope with the fact that there’s a crazy low chance i’ll ever talk to you again. you probably hate me by now, you’re probably sick and tired of seeing me, and let me make sure you know: I completely understand. I understood from the very moment you broke up with me, and onward. I was a handful, and I’m sorry. but, I think no matter how much I tell myself I’ll get better, I’ll BE better, it just doesn’t check out, so, with a broken heart, I miss you. I miss you so goddamn much it aches my heart every time I hear your pretty voice, every time I hear your name, every time I see you, my heart aches because I know that I’ll probably never feel what I felt with you. I tried, I really tried so hard to move on, and jesus, I broke up with that girl because she just wasn’t you. that’s bad, I know, but she didn’t treat me like you treated me. I yearned for that feeling again, and I didn’t get it. I miss you so much. I miss the fun we had together, I miss your laugh, your eyes, I miss the way you say my name, and man, I miss the thought of what we were, I miss YOU. so I’m gonna stop lying to myself. I love you. I love you so much and even though you told me you don’t wanna hear it from me, I’m so happy you’re happy. I hope you find this message, but I also hope you don’t because I don’t wanna seem like an idiot. I love you. so much. keep being you, keep being happy, and I’d rather have you as a friend than nothing at all, but let’s be real, you’re probably not gonna see this, but I made the color your favorite color just for a higher chance. I love you. – J 🤍