this still doesn’t feel like the end but that’s not determined by me, it’s determined by time, the paths we each choose, and what you feel for me in your heart,
right now anything seems far especially with.
you were both poison and prayer, soft hands that struck and soothed in the same breath
your love a blade kissed with honey, your cruelty wrapped in warmth
i drank from you knowing it burned, knowing it stained me, yet still thirsting
because you radiate ETHEREAL femininity, you are my irresistible sirena, femaninity has always been both chaos and comfort to me,
regardless, a part of you will live within me, aching and yearning for you,
it hunted me even when I was the one who stepped away,
as my skin begins to ripple, my eyes fade into grey, my teeth, rotten,
ill still feel your touch against my youthful skin,
Ill see your beautiful brown eyes glow in the sunlight,
ill remember the words I spoke, the promises I never wished to take back
promises that I haven’t been and never will be able to fully collect
I promised I’d love you forever,
I promised you were the most beautiful girl Id ever seen,
I promised I would do anything for you,
those words were never untrue but yet who’d believe the boy who cried wolf after his cries where once untruthful,
still, the ache is a raging tide beneath my ribs, fighting and crashing to be released,
in the case of no return, those vows will rust and keep time with my heartbeat till the last whisper of life leave my body,
when I’m 6 feet under, rotting and deteriorating,
as the worms feast upon my mouth, they will taste the sweetness of your lips,
as they devour my eyes, they will see all of the memories we shared
the dirt that surrounds me will absorb the ache and hunger we shared for each other to feeling our bodies intertwined,
as the feast upon my brain, they will feel the feeling that never went away with you,
carrying it on in this universe, never allowing my love for you to die even after we both are perished into the soil beneath us,

I love you still, always, and forever Melodia Im sorry for everything and beg the universe for us to reunite when truly ready and pray your mom will be able to forgive me as well
– not me