You were my first love, best relationship I had before I found my forever partner. You prepared me for the unseen events that come with being in a relationship. But additionally, I cannot thank you for the rest of my life. You were an awful partner and guilted me for things that you allowed and coerced me into. Till this day you continued to blame me for your decision to do those acts with me, something I made sure you had the final say on.

Please don’t blame me. If I did make you unhappy and or uncomfortable, I am sorry. I did all I could to make sure you felt safe, but if you still did not feel safe, I wish you could have at least told me so.