I’m not mad I’m scared. I’m scared for my future down this path I’m on. I want to change and be in likeness of you.
Even if I change I’m still held down by what I’ve done in the past. I was a pos, and I thought it was okay. Why did I thing anything I did was okay?I’ve done all wrong and you still want me why?
Why couldn’t I have one good explain of love? Being this old and still not knowing how to love is kinda sad. Why do I have bpd? You say don’t worry but that’s all I do. You say place it at your feet how can I do it if it’s my fault? It’s not fair to you.
Ik you keep telling me and showing me scripture saying my worlds not falling apart it’s just rebuilding stage. I’m just drained. And idk where to go.