purple, ur fav color. nobody has ever made me feel so loved, i don’t know how to handle it after my ex. he tore me apart and made me avoidant and i’m sorry you had to deal with it not once but twice. i’m still not sure if i love you again. i’m trying to figure out my feelings and trying to express my feelings correctly, but its hard. i’m sorry for pushing you away like i did, my mental health was decreasing and i wasn’t sure how to handle it any other way than the way i always do; distancing myself from everyone and everything. i want you but i don’t. i want to talk to you but i don’t. i want to date you but i also only want to be friends. i’m sorry for getting you roped in my predicament. but don’t think i didn’t enjoy being with you, because i did, a lot. ur so handsome and funny and sweet, u won’t stop sending me hints but i can’t accept them because i don’t want to hurt you again. i’m sorry i love you, you made me the happiest i’ve ever been and i’m still trying to be able to communicate my emotions to my closest friends.