i dont even know why im writing this here its not like youll ever see it but i just need to get it out. its weird how you live in my head even when im not trying to think about you like the way a random song or a random night sky just turns into you somehow and i catch myself thinking if you knew how much space you take up in me would you feel lighter or heavier i get scared sometimes cuz i feel like you could leave any moment and id still be here with everything i never said stuck in my chest like all the times i wanted to tell you that you make me want to be softer that when im around you i feel like im finally allowed to be gentle without it being a weakness i think if i could fold myself into a letter and slide it under your door without a name on it id just write “you changed me and i dont know how to be the same after that”