i know you like being called ben but bengi always suited you i’m sorry i left i still miss you i couldn’t let you keep doing that to me i had to leave i’m sorry i lied i still overthink all the time and think you’ll send it to them and break your word but im trying to trust you i’ve gotten closer to god and my birthday is coming up i’m sorry i left i couldn’t put myself through that i almost killed my self because of you and i was scared you i love you