i understand and respect your decision of ending things with me, but it really is not what i wanted. you say it’s for my own good and that i will move on, but the thing is i don’t think i will. i don’t want to experience anything with anyone who isn’t you, i don’t want to look into new eyes, because i know i’ll always try to find yours in them. i don’t want to learn anything about anyone, i just want to keep learning about you, discovering new things every day. i want to fight, laugh, cry, and smile with you. i want to lean more about me through you. i want to grow old by your side and i want my kids to be yours too. i want to cheer for you, i want to tell you i love you, i want to see you succeed, and when you don’t, i want to be there by your side. i want to fight against all odds and i want to suffer for as long as it takes if it means i get to be happy with you after.

i love you so much to the point that i let you let me go. i love you so much that if you think this is the right thing for us, i’ll respect it, even if i disagree and even if it breaks me. i try to be strong but i can’t be, im weak when it comes to you.

all the times you were busy in college, i complained and overthought because i was scared of losing you, but it ended up causing just that. i lost you and with you i feel like i also lost a part of myself.

everyone is always saying that someone better will come along, but i don’t think that’s true. i’m sorry if it’s naive, but i don’t want better, i just want you. i believe you are my person, and even if you don’t feel the same, at least you know i always will.

i don’t think we will get back together any time soon, maybe never at all, but i know you’ll always be present in my heart. if you decide to get together with someone else, i will respect that, and it will be my sign to let you go. just know that i’ll be there. in the future, if you still feel anything for me and don’t have anything going on, i hope there can be a chance for us to find each other again. i will try my best to find my way to you.

i know that ending things was the easy way out, but im firm on my decision, and it’s you. i hope faith will bring us back together, and i’ll work hard for it. when i make a living for myself, ill try to find you, in the us, canada, or wherever it is. if you let me, i will try my best to be close to you, and im sorry i can’t be now.

talking or not, dating or not, blocked or not, friends or not, you will always have a piece of my heart that you created, and no one will ever be able to take it away from you.

i love you. i always will.

yours,
sofia