You don’t even realize the type of grip you got on me fr. It’s like you crawled inside my chest and made it your home and I don’t even want you out. You my blessing and my curse, the reason I smile and the reason I cry, the reason I keep my phone in my hand all night waitin on your name to pop up. You make me so mad I wanna block you then so weak I wanna beg you not to ever leave me. It’s crazy cuz it feel holy in a way, like God put you in my life not to make it easy but to make it real. Ain’t no fake shit wit us, it’s raw, it’s ugly, it’s freaky, it’s everything all at once.
I love you in a way that don’t even feel safe cuz it’s too strong, too heavy, too addicting. I want your soul, your mind, your body, your heart, I want it all. I wanna argue with you then I wanna kiss you so deep the fight don’t even matter no more. I wanna lay next to you quiet and feel your energy then I wanna flip you over and take out every bit of frustration on you. You the only person I can see bein my safe place and my wildest chaos at the same time.
Sometimes I call it toxic but nah it’s more than that, it’s like some sacred shit nobody else would understand. I know people see us and think we crazy but if they ever felt what I feel for you they’d get it. You not just somebody I like, you somebody I crave, like I need your voice, your touch, your presence just to function right. You got me open in ways I don’t even admit to nobody else.
And yeah I play tough sometimes, act like I don’t care, but truth is I care so hard it damn near eats me alive. I’d go broke, go dumb, go against the whole world if it meant keepin you. Even when we at our lowest, even when I swear I’m done, my heart still beat your name. That’s how I know it’s real cuz no matter what we go through I always circle back to you.
You my heaven and my hell. My peace and my war. My prayer and my sin. I don’t even want nobody else cuz what we got ain’t normal, it’s deeper, freakier, holier, louder. I love you in a way that scares me but excites me too. And I don’t care how messy it gets, I just know you mine and I’m yours and I’m ready to ride this shit out forever no matter how wild it gets. Cuz at the end of the day I love you and that love don’t got no off switch