I know I messed up that day and I didn’t address the situation properly. You know I would never do something like that, my friend was hyping my head up and I let it get to me. You see I ain’t touch nun that had significant value to you. I was just doing shi and wanted to pyo.
I regret that, knowing you, I know you would’ve tried to make something work even though we broke up.
You just had me so fucked up and had the nerve to try and go as far as physically seeing someone else knowing that would hurt me. How long did you plan on manipulating me into thinking everything was okay? I told you several times i was fine with whatever. A relationship, fwb, or just friends. But you took it too far. Whether it was to keep me around or maybe even YOU thought you would change, cause i know i did. I mentally checked out of whatever we were doing maybe a week before you asked me to be your girlfriend. Once again, I figured you had changed.
It was crazy to me that you didn’t value my feelings or the things I’ve done for you and all those times I had been there for you and listened to your feelings when no one else would. I apologize for the way I handled things, and all I want is to go back and do things differently. But I can’t, so all I can do is own it, apologize, and hope we can move on. I just want you to know I still have love for you and wish you the best. Our relationship came to an abrupt stop because I wasn’t thinking nor did I try to make things work and I can’t lie, it don’t feel right not even being in contact even though you were playing Darnell White. I’m not delusional, I just loved you for you, for your personality, your smile, your flaws and all that you had to offer. Not your face and not your body. When you opened up to me I figured we had a special kind of bond because in your words “you’ve never trusted anyone with your secrets/past”. I’d prefer if you responded but I just want you to know I care for you still and I will forever even if you don’t. I ain’t even trippin bout you doing what you were doing fr cause I always knew I just decided to ignore it to keep you satisfied and to keep myself sane lmao. I just miss you as a friend, and I loved you. i also wanted you to know I’m always open to trying again without the lying and labels if you are, and if not that’s fine too. I’d rather you just not be mad at me anymore.