My anger will always get the best of me, though I only said harsh things like that because I’d know you’d never see it. I’m glad to have met you, even though I’ve come to realize you never could envision a future with me. Always one foot out the door Greg.

You chased me. You pursued me with a persistence that made me believe you were certain. I was scared, terrified but I let you in because you made it seem like you wanted this just as much as I did.

And then, almost from the start, you planted seeds of doubt.. telling me we were incompatible, comparing us to the couple from eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.

It’s hard not to feel like you were preparing for the ending while I let myself fall for you. That’s not fair.

I was scared too, but I wasn’t as cowardly as you. I was willing to meet the discomfort, to change, to grow for you, with you. But you stayed in the safe zone, never risking yourself in the same way. That was cruel, and you did it knowingly. You may never understand the hurt you caused, but I need you to know even if you never read this that I’m angry. Angry because I cared. Angry because I believed you. Angry because I gave you the chance to be something more, and you didn’t take it.

Rayray