That’s understandable, I do, I’m writing out of trying to clear up similar confusion I guess, including about the poems, some of which is for my own situation. Not him, but if you’re for sure he’s on here, I think you should use a name, especially if trying to end things. You don’t want someone else to think you’re writing to them, especially if not using their real name and using someone else’s for whatever reason. But I do wish you the best, it sounds like you need it. Sorry if you’re getting confused too. Best of luck.