7 months later and I still think about you daily. We had an amazing friendship and I thought that you would be my future maid of honour. Our moments were only filled with laughter and giggles and thats the thing about you I truly miss. The thing I dont miss is your silence when he was insulting my character and my body. It was constant yet you never did anything, even after I asked you to. I often think about my decision to end things and it oscillates between knowing I did the right thing (even though it still hurts) and regretting it and wishing that I woudlve held on for longer. I sometimes imagine us hanging out again without any worries and you nearly getting an asthma attack from laughing so much. Deep down I acknowledge it but I dont want to. I miss you. I want things to go back but I also despise you. When will this end?