Although I know you will never read this I want you to know that I really did love you. I really did. I tried my best to keep myself together while we were together. Id tell myself I need to be there for you. but at the end. I felt you just left me. You left everything. I understand you move on, but it hurt. I know I was the one who broke up with you, but it hurt to see you with a new guy one week after our break up. it felt like our relationship doesn’t matter that all my efforts didn’t matter I want you to know I really did love you. You were everything I wanted. I had a crush on you since the last year. I just loved you so much. It hurt I cried at night thinking I did something wrong but now I don’t know if I need to hate you or just continue being friends with you again it hurt so badly. I felt so uncomfortable when even tried to sit in with us it felt like you we’re trying to fix everything that you’re trying to fix me again and I know you won’t read this, but I don’t know anymore. I don’t know if I hate you or if I like you as a friend you hurt me so badly I went days without eating I almost went into depression. I don’t know if I should love or hate you anymore. You are my first love, and you tore my heart apart in front of my face you didn’t even cut my heart in half you tore to pieces shattered to the ground. You shattered it so hard that even if a person wanted to fix my heart again it wouldn’t work. I don’t know if I hate you, but I don’t know if I love you either hopefully you see this or maybe you don’t either way but at the end of the day the only reason I can’t decide is cause you hurt me so badly but I’m emotionally attached to you. I hate you but I love you.