Sometimes I think. I consider for a moment what it would have been
Iike if it all worked out. lf it
was okay between us. The thoughts I have about
you plague me, You enter
my mind uninvited. Yet I
welcome you anyway.
Your existence, even at a
distance tugs at my
heartstring The ache in
my chest remains there,
Rarely subsiding. The
endless buzz of you in the
background of my mind. I’ve tried to forget you. To bury you deep. I thought I missed you less. I thought I was over the love and loss of it all. I thought I had grown. But the only thing that’s taken root is the remnants of you within my Soul. The moments we never had. The lingering glances I never got to experience.
The potential life that was ripped away from me. The love that was ripped away. When you left you took a part of me with you that i still find myself searching for. In an act which you called mercy, you had me destroyed and left.
Leaving me to pick up the Pieces. I’m mentally tugged in different directions trying to leave you in the past Unsure if I can. I find myself missing your voice.
Not knowing what it sounds like anymore.
Wishing to experience your laugh again. And wishing that the last” i love you ” wasn’t so bittersweet. I cursed myself when I said you’ll always have a place in my heart.