Sorry this is the real me. I don’t have empathy for you. I can have empathy, but this has gone on for so long and it’s not bickering, you are abusive. Sorry yes, u are a terrible person in my eyes. Worst male I ever met. No longer want to say man because it implies you’re mature. You’re not. I do hate you. You are shallow, don’t say you’re not. All I hear about is you talking about bodies and sex. I hate how your mind thinks. I hate your opinions. I am so opposite of you. Whether it’s politics, spirituality, morality, values, ways of handling things and even dumb shi like music. I am constantly degraded by you everyday, so for you to think ever that I am simply holding back is insane. Holding back from running to an abusive person towards me? Sure you see me as strict, boring, and self-sabotaging. But I don’t care. I don’t. Stop. You think I am here because I want you, everday you think that. I said over and over why I’m here. I’m here because you done something invasive and idk how or how to fx it, so since you tend to brag about your wrong doings, it is sensible to just filter your monologues for something to help free me. Me back then is not me now. Though, even me then had sense you were not what you potrayed. Can’t shame me for wanting someone better, a better companion, and waiting patiently for them. You slut shame me knowing dam well I am no cheater or desperate to be treated like a toy. I have handled almost everything insanely well, considering how much stress this would induce on any other person. You are not love in me. I don’t want you to be. Please. If both are true, why resort to extemes? You are here because your ego didn’t just lower, it shattered. You said you were competive, willing to do whatever for your happiness at because you think you deserve better., even if it’s at others expense. That’s f up. And wanna know something else? You shi talked me on the internet knowing it would be made public, yet I ever only shi talked you privately and you heard because you’re so in my space. Leave me alone. You even lecture yourself sometimes. You know what’s logical to do, but you don’t care. You don’t. You don’t have it in you to do. Your love means nothing because it comes from someone I want nothing to do with. I do not care how your life plays out, as long as I’m not apart of it. You claim I only open up to you. Not true. I tend to overshare, it’s been a bad habit for years. You claim you’re deserving of approval because you’re observant. Well, so am I. You claim I’m too afraid to ever meet people. Maybe it’s less about fear, and more on standards. Huh well has it never occurred to you that even then, I am never desperate enough for you? You are here because you can’t stand losing to anyone, not getting what you want. Keep that competitive energy out of here. Your writing saying sorry than you flip to how horrible I am and say disgusting things about me for the world to see. It’s awful. You are awful. Back in June, you wanted to guilt trip me I was too harsh. Perhaps, until I discovered the extent to your extreme behavior, I’m sure you know what I’m referring to. I found out how cruel you can be. Back then, I was upset at minor issues, but now my anger is not just justified, but validated by anyone I speak to. Yes, I do seek comfort from anyone. Surprise! Gossip Girl identity revealed. We can never be friends ever. Ever ever ever ever. You feel justified because I hurt you, it’s not in my nature to hurt people for no reason, unlike you. I don’t think whatever circumstances you claim to be in can justify your mindset. Maybe from afar it can be analyzed by professionals, not me, but I don’t owe you that empathy they might have for you, do I?
Go ahead be mad, I think I figured enough out to no longer rely on you. Unlike you, I don’t go bragging about anything or saying dumb shi because I don’t care about gaining everyone’s approval or worried about my status to them. Your behavior is so out of pocket, I cannot feel bad for you. I feel bad for anyone you try to drag down.