i wish i never said that “we were just friends” because i’ve always felt like we were more than that. truth is, i fell for you pretty hard. well before even knowing what you looked like. you were a friend i needed at a very vulnerable time in my life. you showed up and checked in on me everyday, and you showed me you cared. you made me feel wanted and loved. you opened up a part of me i never knew existed until i met you. i want to be a better person because of you. before i stepped away from you, i’ve noticed that you would rather talk and play with other people other than me. i sensed you were less interested in me compared to when we first met and it made me really sad. i started wondering “what’s wrong with me?” “did i do something wrong?” while it is true that i needed time to heal, i also needed to try and get over you. it didn’t work because i spent every day thinking about you. it was annoying. before i told you i needed space to heal, we got too close and i pulled away because i feared that even if you did have feelings for me too we probably wouldn’t work out anyways… i hope that whoever your future partner is treats you well. you deserve to be loved. i hope you find someone who falls in love with who are like i did and not just for how beautiful you look. you made me realize how much i do desire to be in a relationship. for now, i will continue to work on loving myself first. love you, bestie.