hey aryan, i know we ended on not so great terms and its all my fault. i dont think ill ever be able to move on. my addictions are starting to come back. and everything has just been horrible. my mental and physical state hasnt been great. but i swear im locking in now. im going to focus on myself and my grades. i was stress eating for a little bit but i got back on track. i lost 10 pounds WITHOUT starving myself!! yay! my grades are pretty well even though i missed a few days. ive been playing volleyball more. i finished making 3 cosplays anddd i think thats it so far. i will always love you and miss you. yes im taking care of myself but im not letting go of you. im not going to give up on us, because i know what we had is real and i could never love any other boy the same. you were and will forever be my everything. im so deeply in love with you. this is just a break, right? is this temporary? i really hope it is. i know you said you lost feelings for me, i hope thats a lie to make me move on. if it isnt, im sorry for writing this. just know ill still text you on 1/15/31. if you see this letter please write a response. i swear i can handle it. i can live without you. im learning how to love myself. i love you so so much my sweet boy. and to your next gf, please take care of my baby. goodbye aryan, this is the last letter i will be writing.