it sounds like you have a fatalist mindset and have little to no faith in yourself or in others. not saying that is bad (nothing is inherently good or bad only thinking about it makes it so) but there is definitely some room to grow in your mindset folk. i suggest thinking and ruminating less about things you have no direct control over and acting more. worrying and thinking “its so over” before it has even began is kind of a chud-mindset. “when life gets tough all you can do is try” attempting to perceive the entire world (around 12 billion people by most recent estimates) and its constant actions would drive any one single person bonkers, rather focus on what YOU can do in the TODAY. peep game & lock in. if money is a problem, figure out how to make more money. if fulfillment is an issue, meditating will do you good. every single problem has a according solution. start with one “problem” and work your way down the list. somewhere doing that list you will most likely realize doing something is a whole lot better than rotting in the dirt. its inevitable anyhow, prolong it and make your death beautiful, that is life’s purpose