to my first love, i’m grateful to have been yours. even after the love you had for me turned bitter, it was once there, was it not? thank you for being my home, my solace, my everything. thank you for allowing me to be your moon among your stars. i wish you’d realize everything i’ve done just to continue loving you. how much it ruined me. i wish you’d realize just how favorable the circumstances were to get better for you after we fought that day. i always strived to be the person you wanted. i’m sorry for everything i’ve done that ended up hurting you. i was projecting my pain onto you, and it destroyed us. i hope one day you’d realize how much i truly loved you. all my efforts to preserve your happiness. how much i still love you. i miss you, my starr. you invigorated my life, no matter how much i was suffering for you. i gave you every last thing i had, and pushed all my limits for you. i’d do it all again for you. it’s only you. if you ever choose to come back, i promise you we can do it right this time. loving you made me happy, xhenelle. i wish we could fulfill the promises we made to each other. i love you. i love you, i love you, i love you. thank you for being in every aspiration, every wish, every dream, and every prayer i’ve had since i met you. i’m so proud of you, my love. for every minute accomplishment or success you have. i will continue to support for as i always have, from far away. i’m sorry it wasn’t us, princess. i wish i could hold you one last time.