I hope you’re happy and that you’re doing well, stay healthy.

I really wish I didn’t, but I miss you so much. I have decided to not chase for something I can’t have though, in other words I have given up. I don’t even know how I feel anymore, I don’t know if I miss you or if I miss what we had, or if I miss the you who would wish me a good morning and night everyday with a little ”I love you”.

I want to talk to you, but at the same time I’m kind of glad, I feel at ease now, I don’t feel drained, I don’t feel upset, I feel rather calm about this. I wish you’d contact me, but at the same time I wish you didn’t, because if you did I know I wouldn’t be able to say no to that. I don’t want to feel constantly drained and upset.

I love you, Vi.