idk if i can do this anymore, it js feels like everyone doesn’t like me and nothing is ever gonna happen between me and Eliot. I swear everyone is talking shit about me and idek what I’ve done. I really just want it to end but like I’m too big of a pussy to do anything.
I’m scared and idk to do anymore.
I’ve always liked to talk to you and I think you’re a really nice person, it felt nice to have someone that you won’t really meet but you have so much in common with to talk with sometimes. Ik that I’ve never really been your first thought and choice but that doesn’t matter to me. Sometimes it really felt like you were kind of a brother to me, nothing was ever gonna happen between us and that made everything better. You could also be pretty annoying sometimes but in the end you almost always understood.
You’ve changed a lot since this summer, probably for the best, but I always had a feeling that you were pretty mature, not in a weird way but u get me.
I can’t say shit, I’ve changed too, idk if you noticed it, maybe you have or maybe you haven’t, I don’t think I’ll ever know.
We don’t know each other so so well but I always trusted you in a weird way, I told you a lot of things that I didn’t tell other people. I’ve always been pretty private with somethings but the same things I could tell you, probably cus you couldn’t do so much and I wouldn’t meet you like everyday.
Ik that you can’t do anything, I just wanted you to know that I really enjoyed talking and texting with you even if we never really talked irl. I mean the closest we got to talking to eachother was on fort ig and you were being so big of a pussy so you never really talked💔
Sometimes it really felt like you didn’t like me or like talking to me, you would leave me on delivered or opened for hours, that really crushed me. But I kind of understood why sometimes. I js idk. Maybe you never liked talking to me, but that wouldn’t make much sense to me cus you started atleast half of the conversations, sometimes you wold text me some bs or random things, and when I did the same thing you would act weird like it was weird, but maybe it was. I’m sorry for texting you when u didn’t want me to text, ai js enjoyed talking to you.
The small things you would d, like sending random videos, saying goodnight and asking for my snap password meant a lot, idrk why but i found it very nice of you to js say like goodnight sometimes.
The things im saying sound very pick me but idk how else to say them.
But bye, maybe well meet sometime, but we probably won’t cus yk my luck.
I really like you Veikka, but not in that way, and I want you to know that.

Bye Veikka❤️