I think you’re the right person but the wrong time. You clearly aren’t ready for a relationship right now and I’m sorry you haven’t figured yourself out yet. I want to help you but I don’t know how. You want people close yet you push us out of arms reach. I wish that I could cry into your arms without reminding you of your mom. I hate that I remind you of your mom. Because I know that she treated you like her free therapist for her failing divorce . It makes me spiteful of her. I want to be vulnerable yet it feels all so one sided right now. But I realize it’s because you need more right now. Not all connections will be balanced all the time. And right now, despite what you show, you need connection and understanding more than anything. I love you pookie, and I hope to be by your side as long as I can. I wish I met you in at time in our lives where we saw ourselves settling down, so I could see how gorgeous and radiant you will become at the beginning of the end. But for now and our reality, I am yours. Let me be with you until I no longer cant. Let me hold you while you cry. Let me love you pookie and hold your hand while you go through this 🙂