i hate that ive caused you pain. i had my guard up bc i didn’t know what it was like to be properly loved and just like that you believed i didn’t care as much. and with the timing … i promise you that you meant everything to me. when i realized i was self sabotaging i snapped out of it, apologized and tried to give it my all. i got pretty depressed and was stressing a lot, i didn’t think you cared. you mightve but you didn’t show it snd that caused me to believe you didn’t love me as much. eventually my stress snd anxiety and overthinking was a factor for our separation. for three years ive love(d) you with everything in me and im grateful for the times we had together. you taught me a lot, your spirit was so beautiful, so irreplaceable, i could never truly have a bad day with you. you were so beautiful too bubba. all the things you didnt like about yourself (physically and really in general) i loved. i loved making you laugh and vice versa, your smile was enough to brighten my week. you always said the right things when needed. you were (are) my sunshine. i love how unique you are, you have THE best personality ive ever come across. we had our downs and you will never know how much those memories eat at me.
i am glad for all our time spent tg and id do anything to relive it all. to feel your touch again. to experience our firsts together again. you were the first guy to ever truly love me for me, you are a faithful and loyal rarity i’ll tell you! a true gem. it pains me that you are done but i really hope we can reunite stronger my lover. i hope this reaches you. i love you tajh.
– boba, “peach eyes”, C.