text me, talk to me. you don’t begin to understand the guilt i have for doing that to you. all the lies, what we had was real to me and i way i could go back and do it right this time. i am changing to be better, to be who i want to be and i’m sorry that it took me losing you to realize this. you may think i’m lying again, you have good reason, but this time i’m not trying to prove it to you. i’ll always love you for loving me no one else did, but i’ll always regret treating you the way i did. i can’t just sit here and keep yearning for something i ruined, i want to learn to be better for hopefully you in the future, but if not, then the next. you are and will always be the loml.