I dont know what to say. I really feel i dont owe you much explanations. while u can be poetic and passionate ur stubborn, selfish, and sometimes shallow nature stings. i think maybe if u didnt or quit actively doing the things ive already brought up, maybe we could have been friends. I cannot ever be your lover or Demelza. I can’t do anything physical with you either. I cannot even say now I want platonic companship, either. I think we are completely opposite and just that alone is enough. that and all the arguments. ik you have questions. As much as I feel you deserve to know as little about me as possible, since you tend to belittle me, after. I know if u knew some things u would give up on this entirely as your true goal would never come to be. I want that to happen but i refuse to overshare once again to someone i dont trust. i have a bad habit of that i overshared with many even strangers and i regret it later as its never met with true understanding. for something which i never intended on continuing. I’ll spare the things I wish to remain private and guarded. Maybe one day I will share with my friends. Maybe one day I will find someone who is the most gentle of souls. But, to answer the questions I think you may have. I think years ago, though the people in that little town did warn me of you, I was still curious of certain things. For example, I always wondered how you appeared so nonchalant, while I would make a fuss, on IG. simple things like that. but if u know me u would know im a very curious person in general. however i think always sort of knowing things told, i never got attached. i know u think im cold but even the day my book was signed, i did show empathy. i know back in the summer, i was upset. i still am. however hearing everything i have to say, this is my attempt at ending this in a not so dramatic way. i had moved on but some of my anger lingers now i just dont want have to worry about this. i want it to be over and maybe one day ill find what i need and my cold and distance nature will subside. i hope that even if this was a complete waste of time given my answer, i still wish that even if i cant offer anything u wont be mad. u will take this answer and leave with no bitterness.