i feel like gaining some of those things might shine a light in your mind, you can’t go outside topless right now but imagine when you get top sugary and how good it will feel to finally walk around anywhere without a shirt, imagine shaving your first mustache when you start testosterone, or even the mass amounts of leg hair and armpit hair that you can just let grow out to no worries, if you keep stressing yourself out about these things then i would possibly try and replace them with a better factor, you’re trying ur best, and you will achieve these things soon.

im sorry everything is hard right now, and i know those are just dumb scenarios but i promise you, you will achieve what you want to achieve, i know it’s hard around peers right now too, especially if your in school, but i do promise you once you graduate you will run into people who won’t tell the difference and either way won’t care because you’re you, you’re a cool ass guy who loves this or loves that and in your future i know for a fact everything will be okay.

dont stress yourself out, your still finding yourself, what outfits you like, if you want a perm or curls, you haven’t figured out you yet, and i promise you into the future you aren’t going to be the same, you’re still going to be the same boy physically but not the same boy mentally, i hope you give yourself a breath, you are doing okay, you cannot be acting like a dude in the right way just like you can’t be acting like a chick in the right way, there is no right way, everyone’s different, everyone’s unique, and i promise you only fake ass people gaf abt that and treat you differently.

i wish you luck my dude and i hope this could help even a smidge, you got this shit and you’re doing great.