My love,

From the moment we met at school, I knew there was something special about you. I was instantly drawn to you, and those feelings only deepened when fate brought us together again two years later on the metro. I will never forget getting off that metro just to have a chance to talk to you because I liked you so much. In that moment, it felt like the universe was giving us a second chance. Since then, I have felt like we’ve known each other our whole lives. I have never connected with another human being the way I have with you. When I look into your eyes, I feel a sudden sense of hope, as if everything will be okay as long as you’re near. You give me hope. You make things okay. I appreciate all the little things you do to make me happy and feel so special. I love spending time with you, no matter what we’re doing or where we are. As long as I’m with you, I’m having the time of my life. With you, I feel at peace. All my problems fade away in your presence. I love you for who you are and everything you do. You show me that I’m worthy and valued, and I only get that feeling from you. You make me the happiest I’ve ever been, and I hope I made you as happy as you made me.
No matter how far you are from me, my mind still finds a way to think about you. Whether it’s because of something I see, hear, smell, taste, or feel, there’s always something that reminds me of you. I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you, how good you look when you smile, and how much I love your laugh. I daydream about you often, replaying pieces of our conversations and laughing at the funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way you look at me. I catch myself smiling at what I imagine. I wonder what will happen the next time we are together, and even though neither of us knows what the future holds, I know one thing for sure: you’re the best thing that ever happened to me. When I’m with you, I act differently, in the best way possible. I smile more and laugh more. I don’t have to pretend everything is okay when it’s not. I don’t feel hurt or alone when I’m with you. Instead, I feel safe and loved. You’re easy to talk to, and you listen to me. I really appreciate your company because with you, it’s different. With you, I’m the happiest.
I hope you know that I love you with every ounce of my being. I hope you realize your importance, not only to me but to everyone who has been lucky enough to know you. I hope you know that I’ll always pray for you and your happiness. I never realized how much you felt like home to me until I found myself wishing you were with me all the time. The saying “home is whenever I am with you” has never been clearer to me. I wish you could see how perfect you are in my eyes and how happy you make me. I wish I could just show you how much you mean to me. I wish I could let you look into my mind so that you would see how in love with you I am. You mean everything to me, and I wanted you to be my forever. I hope you remember me. I hope you see something that reminds you of me, and I hope you smile and remember the memories we created together. It was surreal, I had manifested this moment but didn’t anticipate it to be so short. I want to relive those moments that are now fractured and would never bind together. I really wish you the best. I hope you find someone who truly loves you and makes you the happiest person on the planet. And I don’t want to sound selfish, but I know there will be nobody who loves you the way I do. Even if our story could never start, I know those moments we shared together will be the most beautiful secret created for two strangers who didn’t mean to fall in love.
I’ll never forget the way you looked at me, making me feel so special, and all the words you said that melted my heart. The way you put me before everything else. I realized that I cannot unlove you. So now my heart has a new prayer. I pray that someone will love you the way I loved you.
I think I’ll always love you. Sometimes I pretend that we’re together. When it’s 2 am and I’m falling apart, and the entire world seems to be against me, and I am in desperate need of comfort, I pretend that you’re with me, holding me in your arms, assuring me that it’ll be okay.
I hope the next person you love is kind with your heart and your feelings. I hope they take the time to understand you and relate to what you’ve been through. I hope they tell you how special you are and make you feel wanted, appreciated, and loved. I hope they fill you with more of what you deserve. I hope she loves you gently and kindly. I hope the next person stays with you forever because I just want you to be happy. But there will always be those moments where I’ll wonder about how your family is doing and who’s on your mind. I know I’ll be forever wondering what’s going on in your life. Somewhere down the line, I promise we will meet again, in a different place, a different time. That’s the only thing keeping me sane—the promise that it’s not over, that the timing was just off. I hope that years down the road I will see you on a metro, and our eyes will meet again. You will always be a part of me because that’s the only way I can move on. The only way to stop my heart from breaking is by holding on to you. I will always imagine us married in our own home with a huge garden and our two little girls playing in it. our life would be perfect. I made the choice to not be together because I don’t want to cause you any pain, and I don’t want you to worry all the time.
Thank you for being a part of my life, even if our time together was shorter than I wished. You have left an indelible mark on my heart, and for that, I am deeply thankful.
I cherish all those long hours we spent talking without ever getting bored, discussing life and whether it could be an illusion. Those conversations were both romantic and funny, a blend that made me feel closer to you than ever.

i will always love you.