Chances of you seeing this are slim to none but even with everything going on I can’t stop thinkin about you. You leave me on open for days ignoring my texts, my calls, hell I think you’d ignore a pigeon carrier if I sent you one. I hate how we ended. I hate how you made it look like it’s so easy to forget about me. I hate how you make me feel: about us, about our relationship, even about or dynamics. I can’t sleep I can’t eat I can’t do anything because all I do is think about you. I’ve been waiting for you stupid owala to come in for the past month now and I hate that I do because it still shows to me that I still want to make you happy and that I still want to be with you. Even when you don’t. I can’t deal with my parents asking the nedt time you’re coming over, I can’t deal deal with having to stare at you in class laughing and smiling like everything’s normal. I just can’t believe you, the person you are, and how you made it seem like this was such an hard decision for you and this affects you so much. I just wish you were more real with me and didn’t make it seem like we actually could’ve been together.