How I wish you knew, understood, believed and felt, how profoundly that chasm crashed down and delved when you drew your last breath. The tracks of all the tears I have shed upon your untimely demise and in your absence, cannot be traced or circumnavigated, nor would I want to do so.

Innately, I know I can only honour your memory by living my life to the fullest, despite feelimg as though, most times these days, I barely have the capacity to move in then slightest and breathing alone, seems an effort.

Carrying on through the void of sorrow, grief, despair and lament, all hurts so fucken much. You’re missing from me, my darling Paulus.

I hope that purity has sheathed and enmeshed the spirit of your soul. Our love lingers infinitely my darling Paulus.